I have had a very tough 4 years .
I had no idea actually how unwell I really was . Luckily I found a very good clinical psychologist who diagnosed PTSD and after 7 months intensive treatment i began to find myself again but to be honest I didn’t know who I was or who I wanted to be .
I have lost 5 stone over the last 2 years and still have a long way to go so my confidence is non existent and have very few photos of myself over the last 10 years .
I don’t know what led me to look into having a boudoir photo shoot but everything happens for a reason and I found the lovely ladies at Kensa .
I booked and had the shoot within 48 hours , it was the best choice I have ever made.
For me not having too long to overthink the whole process worked really well .
I spoke to Karen the day before who explained everything and told me what to bring .
That morning the butterflies in my stomach were swarming as I turned up , a mix of nerves and real excitement.
The moment I walked through the door I was made so welcome and comfortable and was laughing and relaxed .
I left everything down to Karen as I had decided to go with the experience 100% .
I had looked at previous Kensa  photos and knew I wouldn’t look as good as those because I have wobbly bits , parts of my body I hate and wear devices for type 1 diabetes which I didn’t really want on show .
When Karen showed me a photo 10 mins into the shoot I couldn’t believe it was me and it lit a spark in me.
Viewing the photos with my husband was incredible , neither of us knew what to expect.
I couldn’t see the bits I hate , not a wobbly bit in sight and Karen removed my diabetic devices so I’m not looking at myself as just a type 1 diabetic.
I came home a different person , I have the photos all over my house , on show and the slightly more raunchy ones in the bedroom , I look at them everyday and want to shout “That’s me , look at me”  I can see the person I want to be and beginning to feel I’m worth it .
There is a bounce in my step a grin on my face and confidence that’s been missing for a long time .
It was so incredible that I booked another shoot for myself and husband , we did this 2 weeks later and it was just as amazing as the first one .
I also have a shoot booked for my 50th which was the original plan .